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I knew this day will come but i never expect it to come so soon.Well,chang tong bu ru tuan tong,now i truthfully understand the meaning of 有一种爱叫做放手.from i 1st saw u today and u told me u got smth to tell me,i can sense smth is wrong and i was so right.U wanted to let me go,its for our own good,.i respect ur decision.Hope u will live happily frm now on without me in ur life.Thank u for the memories from 091208 till 211208 1.12pm.Sorry for walking away without a word as the last thing i want u to see is me crying.Goodbye..

The End.
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Baby,u asked me ytd if i was disappointed and sad that u cant go,i said no but of course u know i am utterly disappointed.guessed i put too much hope and was really looking forward to spend the week with u overseas at this special event at this special place for the 1st time but Heaven played a trick on us.. :(

Just looked at ur blog,u mentioned abt someone,i am not sure who but i can feel he meant a lot to u in the past and probably even till now..maybe i shouldnt be thinking so much but i am also human,u cant expect me to just pretend i didnt see it and just do nothing abt it,maybe now i am not in the best of mood so i see everything with a negative thought..u also mentioned u wanted to go home so badly..maybe not being able to go to Mexico is a blessing in disguise,u get to go back and do the things u need to do,see the people u miss so much..

Sometimes i cant help to wonder where do i really stand in ur heart,maybe we just know each other for a while so its too early really to tell how much i really meant to u..only time can tell...

I send u a sms earlier on,maybe God didnt want u to see it cos if u do i really dun know how u will feel and react.Just saw ur latest blog entry,can see u really missed home.felt so useless,despite what i do,it still cant help even a bit..God,pls guide me on what i should do..........

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All the anticipation,all the excitement & happiness thinking come Jan 09 we be going to mexico all of a sudden all flushed down the drain a total spoiler rejectal of the bloody stupid us visa.cant help but to feel real down about it as its like we been thru so much and finally we are all set but to get disappointed in the end.Felt so helpless and yet so much hatred for the embassy.it's not as if their bloody country is so nice to visit.what to do when u r working for a us airline.i will bring u somewhere else next year,maybe taiwan. ok baby?:) i will be fine,just give me a few days to settle down my thoughts.

1week Anniversary 161208!

Baby,though its just 1 week,i cant help but to feel we have know each other for ages,it was real nice to hv u just beside me,calling me dear whenever u need help and able to hold ur hand at every opportunity possible,so sweet.Met her mum today..heehee felt so shy le but nevertheless hope i left a gd impression though it was just for a while.U mentioned i stick to u too much and its giving u pressure,i am sori darling but i really cant help it to control myself from wanting to see u as much as i can.i am too selfish,only think of myself.i will try to control myself,i dont want u to lose ur frens n freedom because of me wor..

Tml will be a long day,gonna go a few places to apply the visas,hope everything will be successful wor and hope ur fever will go away soon.Try not to eat so much chocolates le k?i control u frm eating cos its for ur own good k,dun be mad at me wor.

Seeya tml darling. :)

Day 6 of our Journey 151208

Today so happy wor!Dardar sitting just beside me,i can see her whenever i am free.today although got many calls and was real busy but having to see her wherever my heart desire is blessed and that made me so happy despite all the numbers of calls but i know she feel she has neglected her frens.i cannot be selfish so maybe tml she will move back to sit with her friends le.Her mum is here in Singapore,may want to see me later so now here i am at home waiting for her gd news to see if her mum allows her to go Mexico with me.God take pity on us please....

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Shouldnt get to sleep.She just told me she quarrelled with her mom and was crying..she told me she felt pressured and wanted me to leave her alone.Wondering if it is smth i did wrong that made her feel this way.Hopefully i can see her soon and sort out everything with her...feeling so emo now... :(

Went over her place at ard 12pm,finally knew what happened.Silly dardar,always bottle up her troubles,u know what a couple should do,share their ups & downs with each other.Next time got any problem,let me be the 1st one to know,let me share ur burden and let's wrk out a solution together.So excited abt tml,Mum's coming over,let's not worry abt what we dont know and let nature take its course can?So long our love is true,nth can go in our way except ourself.

Gdnite baby,seeya at wrk tml and 6am morning call for u 1st. :)

Day 5 of our Journey 131208

Woke up at 7 and rush over to see her,somehow it was so easy waking up on my offday just hoping to be with her at the quickest moment possible.every sec spent with her is so important to me even if its just looking at her seeing love in her eyes is also a blessing.U asked if i love u,the answer is all in my eyes and my heart beats for u.

Counting down 12 days to Christmas. :)